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Something Akin To A Healer (fdm111)

by Chris Anderson

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Healer 04:36
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HEALER Out on the ledge between sun, moon, and rain I lifted while lying and drifted again Alone in the midst of the haze and decay In search of a healer to lead me along the way Deep within meadows of yellow and green? Or under the covers of simple machines? I waited for years just to see how it looked When I got to the end of that old borrowed book She's a healer now Oh my! Oh my! Is that the sun in my eyes? (or was it just the rain again) That sparks on my soul like the dream-me implies (was it a nightmare, oh my friend) I picked myself up and walked off from the wall (and out the back door, yeah) Before clicking my heels and awaiting the squall Down below darkness, I stood and I sighed It wasn’t just fever that broke the divide But something akin to a healer who sang About love and of hope, full of hearts and harangues She's a healer now Over the border and out of the box I saw her again as I tripped over rocks That stood in the way, between here and now And the moments we flutter and wow, wow, wow... -8/10/18
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Thumbs Out 04:36
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THUMBS OUT i'm on the edge of here and nowhere just keepin' down the line, keepin' down the line this baker's bread, we've all been shown there to break from time to time, break from time to time this tiny speck of a moment captured shattered on the deck with all the ghosts and the rapture there's something in my eyes and i can feel it happen, no? i closed my eyes and felt the wind blow me further down the line, further down the line all the phases of my mind below me they gather all the time, they gather all the time like photographs of a hidden story in the middle of a whirlwind flash before me there's something on my mind and i can feel it happen, no? this is the time i'll never walk away flashing these signs of all the coming days this is the time i'll ever walk away no way out in the wind, i can feel my soul moving further down the line, further down the line somewhere it ends, am i feeling whole yet? i'm feeling mighty fine, i'm feeling mighty fine for the time, there's nothing else for certain til it's curtains for the ones who left without a word there's something in the wind and i can feel it happen, no? this is the time i'll never walk away flashing these signs of all the coming days this is the time i'll ever walk away no way this is the time i'll ever walk away into the light of all i need to say this is the time i'll never walk away no way under this skin, there's a garden growing further down the line, further down the line it can't be seen but still it's all i know so i'll just keep on down the line, keep on down the line and think about the scenes that keep me sane there's no time to wonder why, no time to wonder why it satisfies my soul to keep the wind and rain it's so comforting sometimes, so comforting sometimes i'll wrap it up just like a blanket thank the wind and rain for coming it's been good to crank it up there's something up ahead and i can feel it happen, no? this is the time we'll never walk away flashing these signs of all the coming days this is the time we'll ever walk away no way this is the time we'll ever walk away into the light of what we need to say this is the time we'll never walk away no way -1/4/19
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Part Time Ghost 06:39
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PART-TIME GHOST the part time ghost has seen the most disaster in her eyes no time to shake those lies but after all, we had a ball for a moment in the rain before we all washed out again and if forever's not too kind no more shall we run to be the captain and the gun and if we leave it all behind those moments fade away like teardrops in the rain i never strayed too far away just enough to see the moon and all the ones who left the room this mending wall has seen it all so over it, i crawled back to the space behind my wall and if forever's not too cold no more shall we be between the edges of this sea and if we let it fade away we'll wave to the wind that brings us back to earth again this phoenix dawn, it all goes on and on into the night but no one cares to stop and fight and so it goes, its just one of those things we'll think about when time is running out and if forever's not too soon we'll keep it rolling til we're done or til we find another one and if we burn it all in vain i'll flash a grin and walk away and think of what i'll never say sometimes it's better off that way -1/2/19
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Vanishing Act 04:00
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VANISHING ACT diamonds on the shelf mirror, no one else better grab it now before it's over, so over ghost up on the wall bound to take it all and fall below the bottom low down, so low down and it takes no time at all just to say hello and scatter down the hall sometimes i think it's just a ghost but still i'd crawl just to say hello crippled in the wind from there to back again nothing else can ease the sting of winning when it's over, so over the patsy of the day just looks the other way and mumbles when the walls are falling down and it takes no time at all just to close your eyes and drive into the wall sometimes i think it's just a ghost but still i'd crawl just to say hello a fool in every hand from here to newfoundland and every step between is one i want to do over, do over tear out all the walls replace with waterfalls and watch it all divide into a blowout, so blown out and it takes no time at all just to sing the blues and kiss the canonball sometimes i think it's just a ghost but still i'd crawl just to say hello -1/3/19
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Between The Goodbyes 03:55
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BETWEEN THE GOODBYES between the goodbyes is another hill to climb between the goodbyes is another gear to grind between the goodbyes is another lonely night we've set aside this disposition, i can feel it burn i'm in these positions but i know i'll never learn these sad divisions are too much to discern so we come and go between the goodbyes is another mess to make between the goodbyes there's nothing less at stake between the goodbyes is the dust we'll never shake so we're holding on this satisfaction, i can see it shine these vain reactions, they keep a-coming all the time they're not so distracting, they barely settle on my mind it's what i know between the goodbyes is something kind of weird between the goodbyes it's going down right here between the goodbyes i shattered all my fears just to breathe again this trepidation, it's nothing new belief in tepid stations, it's all that we can do it's nothing like elation, unless elation is askew we'll never know between the goodbyes is a sweet hello, my friend between the goodbyes is a shortcut to the end between the goodbyes is an answer for a win between the goodbyes we'll keep going round again between the goodbyes is something kind of wack between the goodbyes is the road to shackalack between the goodbyes is the moment we attack -1/18/19
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Now It's Dark 03:11
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NOW IT'S DARK if i was a sinner and if i told a lie or two we all can not be winners but maybe once or twice would do we've all seen better days we're skipping through the hazy dawn and i'm just looking for my way and now it's dark, fuck it if i was a grinner and if you thought that i was true i'm feeling kinda thinner from knowing when to take my cue we've all seen better days we're skipping through the hazy dawn and i'm just looking for my way and now it's dark, fuck it if i was a spinner my web would run for miles long what say we sit for dinner and sing that old forgotten song about the ins and outs of everyone who made the grade and those they sang about when nothing else was in the way we've all seen better days we're skipping through the hazy dawn and i'm just looking for my way and now it's dark, fuck it -1/8/19
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Stones In The Road 02:53
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STONES IN THE ROAD i burned the sanctuary down a dozen times and i rearranged it just to fit the order of my crimes i'm letting go of all the stones out in the road sometimes the shoe, it never fits so what the hell am i waiting for excuses or an out, i just can't tell i'm letting go of all the stones out in the road i'm letting go of all the roads and staying home i'm letting go of all the answers i didn't know i never thought it right to sit and wonder why if you know me, that ain't true but it's not like me to lie i'm letting go of all the stones out in the road i'm letting go of all the roads and staying home i'm letting go of all the answers i didn't know sometimes i make it up to see how it would play sometimes i just forget sometimes i look the other way i'm letting go of all the stones out in the road i'm letting go of all the roads and staying home i'm letting go of all the answers i didn't know -1/9/19
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Eye Of The Vulture 05:17
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EYE OF THE VULTURE begging for time or some vague peace of mind it's a big cannonball gonna take to us all it's like how do i know where to look, where to go when the big curtain falls and we stumble down the hall in the eye of the storm in the eye of the vulture we rise and the light keeps shinin' all along the line into the corner of some far gone dreamer's mind this subtle wind keeps me ever on the mend lost in the wind while we're out for a spin it's like sometimes it's always that same thing again i don't mind, it's just fine but i'll be taking my time just to see how we act when nothing else is on the line in the eye of the storm in the eye of the vulture we rise and the lie keeps rolling further down the line into that tunnel where our ins and outs collide this subtle wind keeps me ever on the mend a drifter? a dunce? i played both more than once it's the words, how they lay and the ones in the way that spell out every thought whether valid or not for the whole world to see every last piece of me in the eye of the storm in the eye of the vulture we rise in the heart of the calm in the heart of the vulture we rise and the light shines all along the line that sweet divide where our ins and outs collide this subtle wind keeps us ever on the mend i'm on my way to another sort of day... -1/11/19
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Time Bomb 04:27
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TIME BOMB take it to the head i'm gonna run paint this city red if only in my mind it humors me from time to time to break into the time bomb baby it's a long coming, oh my maybe when it's cold i'll remember everything i sold a moment at a time until i wrap it up and turn on a dime to break into the time bomb baby it's a long coming, oh my to run for the light to run, for the wolves are catching up on me to run for the light to shit on the shadow i can barely see to run for the light it's not a race but still i know the place to be somewhere up ahead it's everything i ever said even when i lied i held it all so deep inside til i broke into the time bomb baby, it's a long time coming, oh my to run for the light to run like the wind, it's blowing over me to run for the light i'm waiting for the river to roll over me to run for the light it's not a race but still i know the place to be to run for the light it's just a thing and i'll take the time to sing to the trees to run for the light i feel it now and i think it's time to bow to the breeze i better run for my life looking back now i kept the sweat upon my brow when i should have wiped it clean but i know exactly what it means it's time to break into the time bomb baby it's a long coming, oh my to run for the light to run, for the wolves are catching up on me to run for the light to shit on the shadow i can barely see to run for the light to run like the wind, it's blowing over me to run for the light i'm waiting for the river to roll over me to run for the light it's not a race but still i know the place to be to run for the light it's just a thing and i'll take the time to sing to the trees to run for the light i feel it now and i think it's time to bow to the breeze to run for my life... -1/30/19
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This Old Ghost 05:45
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THIS OLD GHOST this old ghost is gonna wander in the garden say hello to the birds, to the bees he'll beg their pardon this old ghost is gonna wander through the garden wall begging me, believe me, it's a wonder that he's seen it all from the barren to the thunder under/over it, it's time to crawl to the mirror in the rift of the tunnel, it's a gift we're alone this old ghost is gonna wander in the garden say hello to the birds, to the bees he'll beg their pardon this old ghost is gonna wander through the garden wall screaming like a king who's hearing "no" for the first time while scheming, profiteering down below the rabid ghostline to the mirror in the rift of the tunnel, it's a gift we're alone this old ghost is gonna wander in the garden say hello to the birds, to the bees he'll beg their pardon this old ghost is gonna wander through the garden wall hiding in the corner in the morning what's in store today? should we take it to the top or should we sit and watch it wither away maybe yesterday will fade away just like the fog in the wind or maybe we'll pretend to give a shit until the bitter end to the mirror in the rift of the tunnel, it's a gift we're alone this old ghost is gonna wander in the garden say hello to the birds, to the bees he'll beg their pardon this old ghost is gonna wander through the garden wall -1/18/19

about

Chris Anderson's 77th full-length album release.


After spending the last few years making new albums out of old songs, I finally allowed myself to write songs again. The 2019 RPM Challenge was coming up and while the prior two years saw me taking on different kinds of projects (2017 was a nostalgic look back to my first RPM in 2007 while 2018's album was an improvised psychedelic whirlwind) this year I would start to write songs again.

I was a bit worried about the process. It had been so long. What if nothing came out? What if I had nothing new to say? What if I ran out of chords and melodies? What if the songs sucked?

Fortunately I did not have to worry about any of that. The songs came quickly and effortlessly and they were plentiful. And, most importantly, they were good. With so many songs coming it was clear that more than one album was in the works and the songs soon started to fall into three different categories:

a) socio-political
b) deeply personal
c) other

While the first subset gave birth to the album, Shaker The Moon, this album focuses on the second category. I have dealt with depression for my entire adult life, possibly even mildly bipolar, and it's something that I haven't really fought - I've just come to accept it. While it has sometimes been tough, for me and those around me, fortunately it has also inspired some pretty great songs.

Also, the last few years, as I have crept deeper into my 40's, have made me keenly aware of my mortality. It's a real bummer to have on the brain but that's what has driven me to be as productive as I have been, over the last few years, with all the recording projects, record releases, remasters, book projects, and the posting of my entire body of work online. I have no exit intentions, but I'm constantly getting my ducks in a row, just in case.

The act of aging is something that has never set well with me. Even when I was 16, I wrote "I have never felt so old, decrepit, but romantic" in "The Yammering Song", and "The Biggest Dance Hall In The World", written on my 23rd birthday, features a line that goes, "oh lord, I'm so tired of aging". And so it came to be that 2019 is the year that I turned 45 and, naturally, many of the songs that were written in my birthday month have a sort of "holy-shit-I'm-old" theme going on, while other songs reflect upon family, friends, and other personal relationships, sometimes in a nostalgic way but also in a puzzled, abandoned sort of way. Most of these songs, even the ones that were inspired by someone or something else, really are notes-to-self. Sometimes they are encouraging, sometimes I poke fun at the whole thing, and sometimes they just lay their cards right on the table.

Given the weight of this material, one might expect this album to be a bummer, but I don't think it is. Some of the songs have a melancholy vibe, and could possibly elicit a tear or two, but many of them are quite playful, even whimsical, and even the most sad-bastard song in this mix has a fair bit of hope to offer. And that's what's important. Without hope...

-CA, 3/29/19

credits

released July 12, 2019

"produced" by Chris Anderson
Recorded and mixed in The Room, Feb 2019


CA: acoustic and electric guitars, bass, acoustic and electric mandolin, drum programming, percussion, vocals, other shit.


All songs written by Chris Anderson
(c) CA / Flying Dachshund Music (BMI)


Special thanks to the last 45 years.


(p)(c) 2019 Chris Anderson / Flying Dachshund Music. All rights reserved. Unauthorized duplication is one thing but ripping me off will land you in a world of chaos and pain.

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Chris Anderson Alexandria, Virginia

Chris is a wildly prolific songwriter who has hovered among the outskirts of the music world for over 30 years. On his own label, Flying Dachshund Music, Chris has released 154 CDs, 96 of them being full-length albums. That's just the tip of the iceberg and there are no signs of stopping. Ever.

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